Today I was listening interview from eqafe ….and it was full of insides about relationships,about our relationships about what is real and not …. and is pretty basic concept ,..
I mean if you really want to know someone, you have to spend time with them in physical reality
,and I realize how I form easy friendship or relationship in the distant ….,but really hard to be with someone physically
….and its ironic …,because when I was young,my perspective-understanding of relationship was totally different ,meaning I kept or long for contact with people ,like real physical contact ,were I want to spend time with someone in order to really know someone ,in order to form real communication .
Thru the years I see and realize how I change …,how I prefer this mind relationship over real one relationship ……were its more safe ( safe for who???)
!!! because in real one I need to face myself
,I need to be self honest with myself ….in order to be self honest with someone,
I need to be self honest with me….and there we go….with some statements of self forgiveness :
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to limit myself ,because of forming the mind relationship.
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to value more ,the friendship ,which I form occasionally ,because its safe ,its safe for my ego .
3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not be self honest with myself , to create relationship in my mind ,and thinking that this is fine.were the truth is that thru the mind I can not form anything of value ,anything what is real,...but energy .
4 .I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to looking for recognition from friends ,not realizing that is really stupid ,because if anything ,i should be the one who recognize me for me .
5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not want to connect with people in real time and place ,instead using safe method like phone and computer .,which are not bad …,but you can not exchange the relationship in the mind for the real ,physical one.
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to have fear of real relationship ..,not understanding that ,because I allowed this fear to exist ,i am the one who is missing life in physical realities .
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to never really see how i change me, in order to have friendship i have now ,how i
allowed different personality of mind take it over ,instead just being me here now ,with breath.
8.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to keep the personality and energy alive in my mind .
9.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself judge me in my mind ,because i do not have intimate relationship with someone , and because of this I feel broke and lost ,because i am alone .
10.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself ,because I am alone .
11.I commit myself to stop playing this game of pity on myself ,but concentrate on what is here , concentrate on breath .
12. I commit myself to stop making the relationship in my mind ,but instead concentrate on relationship - friendship I have here ,in my physical world around me.
13.I commit myself to be self honest with me in context of friendships , to stop pretending , to express me here in this physicality .
14.I commit myself to stop expecting the things from friendship ,stop expecting how my friends should act towards me ,but instead just communicate with them in real conversations .
15. I commit myself to stay more with my physical movement,with my breath .
thank you for reading!!
